blog entry# 03 ^_^

Back when I was 10, I had my first crush. It’s not like “crush crushan” thing. That time, I thought that I am already in love. Every break time, I always go to the basket ball court to look for my crush and watch him as he plays. ^_^

One day, I let him sign on my autograph book. There’s a question..”How’s your crush?” He wrote down “Judy”… I feel like my heart was broke into pieces when I saw it. He knew that I had a crush on him and he shows he likes me too. But after I found it out, he’s not my crush anymore… Well that’s childhood…

Like in the story “the Bread Of Salt”, the 14 y/o boy felt the same way as I am… It is so shameful for me because I thought he’s going to write my name. In the boy’s case, he was embarrassed because they met at the wrong time… at the wrong situation. For me, it is not LOVE… it’s INFATUATION… it’s temporary… it’s just it… not obsession (according to Martin,,,the reporter..;p). I don’t see any trace that the boy was obsessed with Aida. He’s just so imaginative. He loves the feeling of being inspired because of his attraction to Aida. And hello…he’s just a boy… Maybe it’s his first time to have a crush…^_^ It is normal though…

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We Filipinos esp. women want to be loved, to be respected, and to be adored. Adored, meaning, we want our man to love us intensely…deeply…with all their heart and soul. That is why marriage is sacred. It unifies a man and a woman who loves each other. Then there’s what we call…SEX. I believe that it is the greatest gift of a woman to the man they loved.

In the story Summer Solstice of Nick Juaquin, there’s a big issue between men and women. The women do their rituals to show who they really are like Donya Lupeng. In my opinion, way back then, women are so tired being a wife. They just stay at home, watch their kids…They are not allowed to go out and linger outside. Unlike now, women are tasked to go to work because if they don’t, she can’t feed her family. Men and women today are more or less equal. Equal because both can be the bread winner. Women can now do what men can do before. We are more liberated now. Back to the story, it seems like Donya Lupeng want to show her husband that she needs something. She wants her husband to adore her. She wants Don Paeng to see her as a goddess who gives him anything he wants; happiness…pleasure…love… She doesn’t want to be just an ordinary wife like after marriage and gave birth…she’s nothing.

I agree that a man wants his wife to be more aggressive than him in bed because it shows that his wife is his property…his treasure… In return, a man must truly value it by showing more respect and love to his wife. Thus, we Filipinos treat marriage and sex as a symbol of unconditional love. ^_^ Sex is not meant to be planned. It has to be spontaneous to show the real meaning of love… A man and a woman do it because of love…not because of lust ^_^